So apparently most guys aren't experiencing pain anymore by this point. Wonderful. Apparently most guys have reduced or resolved pain from this surgery overall, too, but I don't know if I believe that... it's certainly not in line with MY experience. Maybe my pain was just less severe than most guys' to be begin with, so that my pain level now WOULD be an improvement if I was most guys. But I don't think so - judging from what I've read from other guys, most of them don't talk about things like needing to keep wearing special underwear after this surgery, except for the rare exceptions. I seem to have more in common with the exceptions than with the rule. Of course someone has to make up that 11% that they say won't experience pain relief, so I'm not truly alone. But apparently not only did I win the genetic lottery for the crappy infertility diagnosis to begin with, I'm a bonus winner of increased pain. It doesn't inspire a lot of confidence going forward - I've continued to defy odds and expectations in a bad way at every step of the road thus far. I realize that's the pessimistic view - there HAS been some good news & positive results mixed in along the way, and I've still got some sort of chance that this pain won't be permanent. I AM grateful for that. But, again... emotions aren't rational, and that's not how I FEEL right now.
That's all for now, I guess. Just a bit of venting today.
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